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Calm After Storm; Concession Admission

MS Word autorecovered this entry from a few days ago. Probably worth my while to post it.

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CALM AFTER STORM

Tramp/Sparkle and I have never really been on GREAT terms. She's a crisis addict... the moment things were well with us, she'd destroy the peace and start some nonsense that would inevitably be the ugliest thing I'd seen all year.

Strangely enough, I actually regarded our ability to come back from the craziest imaginable disagreements as a GOOD thing.

From a distance, where I am now, it was not a good thing. In fact, coming back from disagreeing in itself is a bad thing. Disagreeing is a bad thing; returning to it can only be a terribly stupid thing.

Iím realizing this now, from the luxurious spot of being Ďfar removedí. I havenít seen her since her brief visit at a friendís party, and hadnít seen her since long before then.

Yeah I sure will miss the beautiful girl who would make me feel like a million bucks. Her physical beauty aside, thereís little-to-nothing left.

Iím not in the market for Ďlittle-to-nothingí. Iím in the market for Ďeverythingí.

And therefore, despite how gorgeous I think she is, this ship has sailed.


NEW STANDARD

Iíve turned around and out of nowhere, all of my single friends are getting serious about somebody. Gigoloís greatest fear. But then again, Iím no gigolo.

If I was, Iíd go to the gym more. Iíd flex in front of the mirror and kiss my biceps from time to time. Iíd be SUPER hot. But Iím not. Iím a good guy, replete with my own flaws, and I want a good girl. With as few flaws as possible.

None of the people I know who are happy in relationships have found somebody Ďperfectí. I can LIST all the flaws I see in each of my friendsí significant others.

The perfect person may not exist, Iím beginning to believe. Who knew?

I think a willingness to make concessions, to some degree, assures a likelihood of pairing off.

Sign me up.


10:56 a.m. - 2006-10-19

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